that there was a fight to win

When i started this journey
each challenge i faced
looked like a fight.
And i thought that 

when the fight was won
that it was over.

Then in a few months
or maybe a year later - 
Perhaps with different players
or a different arena
but in essence really the same fight
the fight i had already won.

i started to feel like

this isn't a fight to win
this is a fight to survive.

My warrior sword was growing heavy
my dearest comrades

no longer at my side.

i earnestly thought 

about laying it all down.
Save myself.

Everyone would understand 

i looked at the road ahead

there was no fight left in me

Then the moment i decided to

give up

let go

My heart grew heavy

i knew i couldn't live with

myself without that puzzle piece.

Slowly i began to see
how many friends

New and old
are standing with me
i realized this isn't a battle to win

this is my lifelong crusade.